I had a great childhood & loving parents that still support me and help me. I have a loving wife who worries, perhaps a little too much, but given what I've put her through it's warranted, and appreciated!
Even as a child I knew I was different. My mind raced even as a child with restless and sleepless nights. I stayed active in high school through sports and performed well academically. I never really had problems then.
Issues manifested themselves in college. I gradually delved deeper into drugs and alcohol. I also did not have the support I had when I was home; that was missed and probably needed. Things got worse, my sophmore year of colled I was kicked out of school, and ended up serving a 90 day jail sentence . I was a victim of circumstance really, an innocent bystander, there at the wrong place and time. Too bad that they made an example of my roommate and I.
Now I will forever carry a second stigma; that of being a felon.
Since then have I have gone through ups and downs mostly depression following mania. Manic episode are almost always brought on by high levels of stress. Prior to diagnosis I self medicated with alcohol and drugs. I know now that these things made everything worse and I'm thankful that I took the initiative to see a psychiatrist.
My point is that if you are reading this and.you suffer, and if you feel something something that doesn't feel "normal" talk to someone, or go see a psychiatrist. If you are a student without health insurance go to the student health services center. It's for your own good and the good of everyone around you.
The recognition of this has helped me immensely! I now know the signs to manage myself and cope effectively. We are all in this together feel free to reach out for personal advice although I'm not a doctor I cannot give medical advice. I do want to connect though and I do want to help if I can
I am Bi Polar
- Anonymous
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