So many expectations

It's fucked up  how one person views my behavior as crazy another as fun. What the fuck? Who's right? I don't know what you expect of me; what do you want from me? Ugh!!!???!!!

Nothing can express the way I feel! 

Here's an attempt:

My whole world is crashing down on me! Everything around me! How do I react? How should I behave? 

What do I need to do to prove I'm not 'crazy' 

Stress kills! Literally I'm under so much that I feel like I'm carrying the world on my shoulders! Too hyperbolic maybe, but that's how I feel; the world is on my shoulders! 

It's my world that's on my shoulders at least. How do I react I don't know; you tell me. What do you expect from me, what do you want? 

Someone tell me: what do you want me to be and I'll be that!

Until then I don't know. 

I know one thing: 

I am Manic Depressive, Bi Polar, insane, crazy.....nuts, looney, lost it.....etc.....

-anonymous